I never knew the power “fear” had over me until I had an event that I could not control in my life. This health event put this overwhelming cloud of fear in my path and it took control of my every thought. I woke up with fear, I fell asleep with fear, and it started to consume me. I asked God to control my fears, but since I had never had such an over whelming powerful feeling before, I wondered if the power of fear was stronger than the power of God’s peace.
Yes, I knew God’s peace, but I was challenged with this fear that was so strong, it seemed to be bigger than my faith. I struggled with this battle, and I knew I had to get control and I knew I had to fast. Other things in my life did not matter as they seemed to be so small to me and I was in pain. The pain was not as much physical as it was mental. How was I going to get on the other side of this struggle and I felt so alone. I felt like I could not talk to anyone as I knew they would tell me to trust God….. and I did, so why could I not trust.
Fear in our life is real. Fear is this stress hormone that releases adrenaline, and it is powerful. Your blood pressure and heart rate increase. You start breathing faster. Even your blood flow changes — blood flows away from your heart and into your limbs, leaving you to feel like you are not in control. My blood pressure went up as well as my heart rate and all this scared me.
What God says about fear? The first verse that comes to mind is “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Tim. 1:6–7.) How many times have I read these words and yet they now mean so much to me!!!
Here is what I am learning. Fear can come into our life and sometimes like it was for me, creep up on us when we least expect it. Some fear comes when we go on a roller coaster ride and we enjoy that fear of surprise, but where do we turn with the other, more significant fears? Fear from a health scare, or learning our family member has cancer, or the fear of an impending miscarriage?
Unfortunately, some fear is legitimate, and some fear is irrational., but it still can be overwhelming.
But here is what I am holding on to….. and what I want to share with you….. we can find hope and an anchor in the storm that is our fear because God promises to be our light in the storm. HE PROMISES THIS. Do you hear me, HE PROMISES. We just have to believe. Remember the verse in my last blog that when God talks about “peace that passes all understanding”? God talks a lot about fear in scripture. “Fear not…” is a common reminder in the Word, because when we are in the thick of things, we are often forgetful God promise. I tend to imagine the future before it has even happened…leading to a lot of fear and anxiety. But God reminds us that He will fight for us. He will protect us. He will calm the storms in our minds and hearts. All he asks is that we turn our eyes from our fears to Him.
I love you…. but even more important, God Loves you and He will never let you down.