Thursday, March 13, 2014. I ask the Father, one more thing……….. “Keep them safe and make them strong.”

1970459_668649933193142_1593178405_nThis past weekend I was there to watch my son marry the woman of his dreams.  He told her in his vows that he would love her for a thousand years and he meant that.  The weather was perfect, the words from the preacher were fitting to a tee, and the bride was absolutely stunning.

But when I saw was my son’s face I saw his life from a little boy to the man that he is today.  His first steps, his first giggle, his tears when he fell, his struggles in piano lessons, his first goal in soccer, his glance back at me as we left him at college, his smile when we would come visit, his first salute when he commissioned, his walk down the aisle when he graduated from college and his excitement when he was chosen for ENJYPT pilot training, his graduation from pilot school and when he talked about Addy.

He’d talked about her often for several years like he knew she was the girl he would proposed to on that cold day at the National Harbor. I know now that Addy was that little girl I prayed for all those years as Robert was growing up during …. her first steps, her tears when she fell as a little girl, her struggles school, when she left  for college…… she was that woman I prayed for every night for my son.

I wanted to share the mother son dance played during the reception when I danced with my little boy, now a man.

A MOTHER’S PRAYER
Words by Bonnie J. Barbey
Music by Kay Crawford

A PRECIOUS LITTLE BABY BOY TUCKED IN HIS MOTHER’S ARMS
LISTENS AS SHE ASKS HER LORD TO KEEP HIM SAFE FROM HARM
HE LOOKS AT HER IN WONDER, AS HE HEARS HIS MOMMA PRAY
FOR GOD TO BLESS THE BABY GIRL WHO WILL MARRY HIM SOMEDAY

Chorus
KEEP HER SAFE, MAKE HER STRONG
GUARD HER BODY, HEART, AND SOUL
AND LET HER LIFE BE FILLED WITH LOVE
LIGHT THE PATH THAT SHE’S BEGUN
GIVE HER FAITH, FOR SHE’S THE ONE
WHO WILL GROW INTO THE WOMAN WHO
WILL STAND BESIDE MY SON

WADING POOLS AND BIG BOY TOOLS, HIS BUSY HANDS AT PLAY
SOMEWHERE THERE’S OTHER TINY HANDS THAT WILL JOIN WITH HIS ONE DAY
MOM’S HEART GOES OUT ACROSS THE MILES AS SHE SEEKS HER FATHER’S FACE
PRAYERS RISE INTO HEAVEN, TRANSCENDING TIME AND SPACE

KEEP HER SAFE, MAKE HER STRONG
GUARD HER BODY, HEART, AND SOUL
AND LET HER LIFE BE FILLED WITH LOVE
LIGHT THE PATH THAT SHE’S BEGUN
GIVE HER FAITH, FOR SHE’S THE ONE
WHO WILL GROW INTO THE WOMAN WHO
WILL STAND BESIDE MY SON

A LOVELY BRIDE COMES DOWN THE AISLE, MOM’S EYES ARE FILLED WITH TEARS
HER SON IS JOINING WITH THE ONE SHE’S PRAYED FOR ALL THESE YEARS
SHE SEES GOD’S HAND, HIS PERFECT PLAN IN THE COUPLE STANDING THERE
SHE BREATHES A SIGH OF THANKS TO GOD WHO HEARD A MOTHER’S PRAYER

KEEP HER SAFE, MAKE HER STRONG
GUARD HER BODY, HEART, AND SOUL
AND LET HER LIFE BE FILLED WITH LOVE
LIGHT THE PATH THAT SHE’S BEGUN
GIVE HER FAITH, FOR SHE’S THE ONE
WHO HAS GROWN INTO THE WOMAN WHO
NOW STANDS BESIDE MY SON

THE MARRIAGE VOWS ARE SPOKEN, EXCHANGING OF THE RINGS
AND SHE PRAYS, “OH FATHER, NOW I COME AND ASK FOR ONE MORE THING”
KEEP THEM SAFE, MAKE THEM STRONG
GUARD THEIR BODIES, HEARTS AND SOULS
AND LET THEIR HOME BE FILLED WITH LOVE
LIGHT THE PATH THEY’VE NOW BEGUN
GIVE THEM FAITH, FOR THEY’RE THE ONES
WHO WILL GROW INTO A COUPLE WHO WILL GLORIFY YOUR SON
LIGHT THE PATH THEY’VE NOW BEGUN
GIVE THEM FAITH, THEY’RE CHOSEN ONES
LET THEM GROW INTO THE COUPLE WHO WILL GLORIFY YOUR SON

Robert and Addy, I love you both.  Love, mamma.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014. Hot Tears to Healing.

Recently I was hurt by a situation that I found hard to resolve in my heart.  It was not really one incident, but several that all entwined together that slowly broke me from within.  I found myself waking up with hot tears rolling down my checks uncontrollably.    I have never felt this despair.  It was foreign to me. I could not tell anyone about it.

I am normally the one that helps others get to their healing place and yet I could not get there myself. I am the soft healer and support to others and yet I felt alone and weak and defeated.  The more defeated I felt, the deeper I felt I was falling.  But, I still prayed for God to hold me in His hands until I could gain control of my tears.

I knew the way to heal my heart, but I could not find the way to stop the tears to start the healing process.  I knew I had to grieve through my pain as I have told so many other to do.  Only God could take my hand to that healing place, I just could not do it alone.

I know that many times God will allow us to cry, deep hot tears but He NEVER lets us go.  He is there to hold us up until we stop crying and He will lead us to that place to heal.

Even today, I am healing.  But I am stronger because I let myself cry, I let myself greave and I let God heal my heart.

I also know that one small email from someone …. (They will never know how powerful that email was) was enough to help me know God was there….  Still.

As women, we need to support each other, help each other in our weaknesses.

If you paint, paint every time you can.  If you dance, dance every moment you have a chance. If you write songs, write on every paper …… don’t let anything stop you.  Your art will touch someone around you even if you do not know you are healing someone heart.

I love you all.  What could break us, makes us stronger!!

Love, me