I was looking through some of my old materials when I was coaching and found a blog I wrote to actually help myself. It was titled “Looking through a Cracked Window.” I wrote these words 4/10/2010.
“I am not sure why this particular morning I realized what I should be years prior to now, but I woke up feeling I was looking at life through a window that was flawed. I could not see what was reality in my life due to the distorted image I thought was the truth and what was my mind playing tricks on me.
I am sure we all have the same experience in that we look at the world in front of us and our experiences are filtered by the windows are are looking through. If we are unhappy, our events are unhappy. If we are scared, even going outside makes us fearful. If we are insecure, we tend to be closed to challenges.
I recently experienced a fall. That left me vulnerable and scared. It transferred into other part my daily life as I saw life through the lenses of the world of fear. I had to decide to change that pattern of thinking, but it took all I could muster to do this.” April 4, 2010
Today, I still have some limitations from that fall, but with God’s help, I was able to do a couple things. First, recognize that I could not over overcome the my fears had I not given over my fears and insecurities over to God. Secondly, recognize that I daily need to replenish myself with the affirmations that I am the woman God wants me to be and that He has given me gifts. Thirdly, these gifts of “exhortation, leadership,artistic ability, administration, and encouragement” make up who I am.
That window that was once cracked that I was looking through as a frighten woman is my reminder that I can overcome the fears I had and still have, but know I know how to filter them.